Okay guys.. so I haven't been on the blog since March. You know, come to think of it, I probably haven't had sex since then either! My life has been a rollercoaster recently. I lost my oldest brother (whom I hadn't spoken to in over 4 years). This is the story (somewhat) of what happened that day..My niece was the sole survivor.

As you can see my heart has not been in blogging. I'll be back to blogging soon.. maybe.


~Kelsey M

I'M BACK, with a sore back..

So, I had my hemilaminectomy (big word for part of one of my discs cut out) on February 11th.  It was scheduled for the week prior, but due to my white blood cell count being too high, it was re-scheduled.

I am feeling so much better than I was immediately after the surgery.  In the recovery room, they couldn't keep my pain under control & I felt like I was going to die!!

Now, I have my good days & bad days & am trying to get myself well enough to go back to work. I'm a pharmacy technician & have 8 hour shifts. Can't go back to work like this!

It's getting better each day. I can't wait to get back on the TTC rollercoaster!!


~Kelsey M

Surgery date

My surgery has been set up for February 3rd.  Nervous!

An Update:

Sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog lately. I must say I have been in a self-pity type of state for a while and haven't felt like blogging.

My back problems have come back worse than ever. I am having surgery in February. The first round of Clomid was my last round, at least for now. I have to take care of myself before I can take care of a little one.

So, for now I have been focusing on my ancestors, researching the past. Since I can't do anything presently or in the near future, it helps that I can look at things in the past & try to figure them out.  Whether my family before me were good, bad or ugly.. it really doesn't matter. Just learning about them is fascinating to me.  It is a welcomed retreat from my day to day struggles with back pain and migraines.  And it helps that I haven't been focusing so much time on my fertility issues.

By the way, I have been on time, every month.. since October. Go figure.

I guess I am glad that I have had a break to think about different things.  I want a baby more than ever, but I don't have baby fever.  I don't cry at the thought of someone else having a baby.  I am glad that I don't use the words "vagina, cervical mucus, penis, sperm, semen, etc" in daily conversations anymore.  Okay, maybe daily, but less frequently.  It's funny to have a conversation with someone who isn't an extremely close friend & use the words so freely.  A lot of people are taken aback by this.. hmmm.  I don't censor myself. Maybe I should?

So, anyway ladies, I miss you. I am sorry that I have not been here to keep up with everything going on in your lives.  I can't promise that I will be on here daily (although I am going to try to keep up).. but I can promise that I have email on my phone that I keep by me 24/7.

takeherwithyou@gmail.com

Also, I have AIM & Yahoo.

AIM: ewwiheartyou
Yahoo: iwillhavetogowithano  < that's I will have to go with a no (not ano, which I have been told is spanish for anus?)

So, ladies.. I ask that you let me know how you are doing. Send me a little note, a kind word.. anything. I miss you. Good luck. Sticky vibes, the whole nine.

Love you!

~Kelsey M