Okay guys.. so I haven't been on the blog since March. You know, come to think of it, I probably haven't had sex since then either! My life has been a rollercoaster recently. I lost my oldest brother (whom I hadn't spoken to in over 4 years). This is the story (somewhat) of what happened that day..My niece was the sole survivor.

As you can see my heart has not been in blogging. I'll be back to blogging soon.. maybe.


~Kelsey M

I'M BACK, with a sore back..

So, I had my hemilaminectomy (big word for part of one of my discs cut out) on February 11th.  It was scheduled for the week prior, but due to my white blood cell count being too high, it was re-scheduled.

I am feeling so much better than I was immediately after the surgery.  In the recovery room, they couldn't keep my pain under control & I felt like I was going to die!!

Now, I have my good days & bad days & am trying to get myself well enough to go back to work. I'm a pharmacy technician & have 8 hour shifts. Can't go back to work like this!

It's getting better each day. I can't wait to get back on the TTC rollercoaster!!


~Kelsey M

Surgery date

My surgery has been set up for February 3rd.  Nervous!

An Update:

Sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog lately. I must say I have been in a self-pity type of state for a while and haven't felt like blogging.

My back problems have come back worse than ever. I am having surgery in February. The first round of Clomid was my last round, at least for now. I have to take care of myself before I can take care of a little one.

So, for now I have been focusing on my ancestors, researching the past. Since I can't do anything presently or in the near future, it helps that I can look at things in the past & try to figure them out.  Whether my family before me were good, bad or ugly.. it really doesn't matter. Just learning about them is fascinating to me.  It is a welcomed retreat from my day to day struggles with back pain and migraines.  And it helps that I haven't been focusing so much time on my fertility issues.

By the way, I have been on time, every month.. since October. Go figure.

I guess I am glad that I have had a break to think about different things.  I want a baby more than ever, but I don't have baby fever.  I don't cry at the thought of someone else having a baby.  I am glad that I don't use the words "vagina, cervical mucus, penis, sperm, semen, etc" in daily conversations anymore.  Okay, maybe daily, but less frequently.  It's funny to have a conversation with someone who isn't an extremely close friend & use the words so freely.  A lot of people are taken aback by this.. hmmm.  I don't censor myself. Maybe I should?

So, anyway ladies, I miss you. I am sorry that I have not been here to keep up with everything going on in your lives.  I can't promise that I will be on here daily (although I am going to try to keep up).. but I can promise that I have email on my phone that I keep by me 24/7.

takeherwithyou@gmail.com

Also, I have AIM & Yahoo.

AIM: ewwiheartyou
Yahoo: iwillhavetogowithano  < that's I will have to go with a no (not ano, which I have been told is spanish for anus?)

So, ladies.. I ask that you let me know how you are doing. Send me a little note, a kind word.. anything. I miss you. Good luck. Sticky vibes, the whole nine.

Love you!

~Kelsey M

yayayyy! done with it!

So, I am done with Clomid for the month. YAY! I hope I get preggers this month, I so don't want to have to go through that shit again!

~Kelsey M

Clomid GRR!

I spoke too soon! Today, Clomid totally kicked my ass. My ovaries and vah-jay-jay both hurt. I can understand the ovary part, but my vagina? Why is that hurting? No sex in the past few days. Plus, I was crying like.. all day. Over nothing, really. Tomorrow is the last day for this cycle.  Then, in a few days I start the OPK.  Thanks for the well wishes!

~Kelsey M

CYCLE DAY 5

I'm on Cycle Day 5; This is Day 3 on Clomid. I am doing well. I don't feel too emotional. I am having a little bit of ovarian pain here & there. Overall, I am doing okay!


~Kelsey M

Friday !

Okay, I know I haven't been giving you guys a lot of information lately, here goes a little something:


My procedure went well yesterday. My back still hurts, but I really think it's going to work this time. Apparently, I got the most drugs out of everyone else yesterday! I told him to knock me out! I wasn't knocked out, but I was as close as I could get, I guess.

A surprise today: I started my cycle. A week early.  I started October 9.  It's October 30. Aunt Flo was like "Hey Heifer, time to party! Ask & ye shall receive!" The letter like.. totally worked.


So, back thingy done yesterday.. hope it helps.. what if it doesn't?..want to be on Clomid.. need babies.. told to call GYNO when I start..

OKAY LET'S DO THIS!

Cycle Day #3 = Sunday..

I AM SO EXCITED !!



I really hope the injection helps, if not, I am totally screwed.



~Kelsey M

TOMORROW, TOMORROW

So, tomorrow I am getting the third injection. I HOPE it works!  And maybe I will feel better & start blogging more frequently! I miss you, ladies!

~Kelsey M

Update

Here's a little update for yall. My back is acting up. I mean .. really. As you may (or may not) know I have been suffering with back issues for over a year now. I have been trying to make it on Tylenol alone for the past few months & that has stopped helping. I just CAN'T do it without something stronger. I cannot function on a daily basis.  Lately, as soon as I get home I've been snuggling up to a heating pad. It helps, sometimes.  So, I went to the doctor the other day & got back on Lortab.

What does that mean? We may not be on the TTC rollercoaster for a while.  I have a procedure planned for next week & if that goes well, I may be back on the coaster in time for next cycle. Who knows? It all depends on Thursday.

The Lortab isn't even helping THAT much.  It's better than Tylenol. Just keep me in your thoughts, yall.  Back pain is a bitch.


~Kelsey M